Jannah di Hati

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم It's tough, but it's life House deposit, burned. Few hundreds ringgit. I did struggle to get back the deposit, and the rental house agent gave a chance for me with a not simple condition, I need to find a new tenant to replace my place in the house. I chose to stay in college after spending my time brainstorming, discussing, researching and calculating my expenses with my friends, senior and parents for the third semester (first time in Seremban). I discussed with my parents and they seemed a bit worried about me and disappointed with what had happened, but they left me to decide on my own as I'm already twenty-three woman. I lived in a college for a semester and I saved my money for about 1000 ringgit for the third semester, compared to my other friends who live in the rental houses. However, the fourth semester gives a tough experience too when my college application is not a success. My friends and I were searching houses for rent an...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Once upon a time there was a man with a "B+" blood type. His Japanese friend said that, "You only gain what you want when you really focus on it. You cannot do multi-tasking, I'm afraid you might stress out," Actually what his Japanese tomodachi said was just an assumption, as Nihon jin evaluate person characters through blood types. I have only two mirae right now, to achieve my ambition to be a successful IR and to win the heart of the girl that I like. That sole person. That shizuka 'quiet' yet kirei 'beautiful' person. "Dude, seriously you need to choose one. Let's do it one by one. How about you be a success engineer first then after that you can confess your love to her. I bet she will not dare to refuse 'a rich man will be' like you," The man agreed with the not very bad idea. A few years later... "I am successful now, I want to confess my love for her," But it was t...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم “One of the main reasons that cause corruption among the public servants is low salary,” explained one of my classmates in front of the class, while showing us the Prezi presentation. Her presentation was about The National Integrity Plan (NIP). A very interesting policy related with the way to overcome corruption. “Yes, even if you add their salary they will still feel not enough. Corruption will still happen. In the end, it is the matter of your imaan. It’s your own decision to accept the bribe or not. No matter how much salary that you are receiving, if you insist to be rich with the illegal money, there you go, corruption will still happen.” I just nodded my head a few times, agreed with my lecturer’s comment. It’s just the matter of your imaan...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم I miss the time that had passed. The time when I really enjoy myself studying with my friends, living in a college for the first semester until the fifth semester without worrying about safety and bills, back home on weekend, travelling in small pekan that has everything- at least enough for a student like me though it does not have a cinema. I don't have so much interest to watch movie in a cinema pun, my lappy already provides all kind of tv shows and movies that I want. I miss the time when I only need to take a van to go to class and pay only 50 cent - this is worth much, rather than walking. During diploma time, life already feels tough but the degree's life is really a bit tougher than that. I'm not kidding. You might not be able to live in college for every semester if you are not an active student as chances for that will be given to your new brothers and sisters *yang baru masuk universiti. So, you need to rent a house ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم There are some of my friends who have to repeat the papers for some courses.  I wish them best wishes and pray so that they will manage to pass this time with   flying colours,  Amin ya Rabbal Alamin:) Failure is not a barrier for us to achieve what we want.  I, once had failed for 3 times in an important exam and I struggle harder to get a place at university. I, once had felt the way failure crushed all my dreams at the time when most of my friends were able to further their studies in high prestige university and even overseas. Then I finally realized that it was a special experience in life of mine, reminding me that the examination, did not mean everything in life. Most important, we have made a lot of efforts to face it, then the rest we have to pray hard and leave it all to Allah. *Yesterday I dared to struggle. Today, I dare to win -Bernadette Devlin Believe me, it is one of the journeys to success.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم When I saw my previous schoolmate's facebook, the photos of them getting married, managed to get scholarship, studying in famous courses, getting good jobs...I (istighfar) sigh (don't judge me, I am happy for them but for certain reasons I feel sad for myself). I hope for those rizq too and when I start comparing myself with them I feel like I am just an elf and they are gojira (gozilla). suddenly it feels like 'what I've achieved so far is just too small compared to theirs, ' Yes I know that Facebook is not telling the whole life of a person. Basically people just shows the happiness of their life, but the real life might be the opposite. There must be tough times that they need to face. As I walked with a friend of mine, I told her, "If it didn't happen to me, I think my life will be better." "I think I would be able to achieve as good as them...or even better," heart filled with sadness. I am not reg...